As we near the one year anniversary of the death of Whitney Houston next month, we are reminded just how painful and fresh the loss is for her mother Cissy Houston. Cissy is releasing a memoir titled Remembering Whitney: My Story of Love, Loss, and the Night the Music Stopped next week and in its pages, she opens up about Whitney’s life as seen thru her eyes. The memoir covers Whitney’s entire life, from the start of her career to the sad end of her life … and based on the excerpts below, Cissy talks about pretty much everything we’ve heard about Whitney’s private life, even if she doesn’t do so in explicit detail. Click below to read some excerpts from Remembering Whitney and get a taste of the Houston memoir that will be released next week.
Nearly one year after Whitney Houston’s shocking death, her mom Cissy Houston often asks herself: “Could I have saved her somehow?” In a revealing new memoir, Remembering Whitney (Harper Collins), Cissy, 79, writes candidly about her daughter’s severe drug problems and the downward spiral that led to her death by drowning in a hotel bathtub with traces of cocaine still in her system. “She started partying and she didn’t really know how to stop,” says Cissy. “I used to wonder what she was doing at night, where she was.” But when she tried to contact her, Whitney often didn’t return her call. “Whitney hid from me,” says Cissy. And when she did see her, she was often afraid to confront her daughter. Shocked at her skeletal appearance at the Michael Jackson tribute concert in 2001, she never expressed concern. “What was the point?” she asks. “I didn’t want her to run completely away from me.” She doesn’t believe former husband Bobby Brown was the cause. “I blame him for the way he treated her,” she says, “but I don’t blame him for her drug problems.” Still, she adds: “He was no help to her at all.” Cissy also writes for the first time about her daughter’s relationship with former assistant Robyn Crawford, who became her creative director. “I just didn’t want her with my daughter,” she says. “I know nothing about a romantic relationship. That’s what everybody said but they didn’t know either.” She admits, Crawford “cared for her” and reveals for the first time that she was the first one to come tell her Whitney had a drug problem. Cissy is still tormented by her daughter’s sudden death. “I’m angry she died alone, in those conditions,” she says. “I’m still mad about that.” Still, she hopes her book will remind people “what a good person she was. I want people to know the truth about her, how she really was.”
It’s really fruitless to lay blame at this point. Despite my personal beliefs about Bobby Brown and his influence on Whitney’s life, it doesn’t make any sense to dwell on any of that. That Cissy doesn’t blame Bobby speaks more about her strength of character than anything else. I must admit, I’m most intrigued by Whitney’s long-rumored love affair with Robyn Crawford. I’m quite surprised that Cissy even talks about that relationship at all. It sounds like Cissy does not confirm that the Whitney and Robyn were romantically involved but, for me, based on what she reveals in just this excerpt she pretty much confirms the relationship for me. This might be a memoir that I’ll have to pick up and read … what is most painful is that IMHO, Cissy seems to be experiencing helplessness again with the way Bobbi Kristina is living her life. But … Bobbi Kris’s life is just getting started … we’ll have to wait and see how things turn out for her. I still cannot believe that it has been almost a year since Whitney passed away. She is still greatly missed by her fans. I hope this memoir will be able to give Cissy Houston some peace as she mourns the far-too-early death of her daughter. Does this book sound like something you’d want to read? As I said, I think I’ll need to pick up a copy to read Cissy’s take on Whitney’s storied life.